This is a completely anonymous blog of a young woman tired of her body. This body is too big, too fat and doesn’t deserve any love and affection because only tiny and slim bodies can have all the nice things. And since this body of mine doesn’t listen to my begging, all that’s left is starving it - my last resort. I will get thin, pretty and lovely. This blog is my only place on Earth where I can write exactly what’s on my mind. There will be a lot of personal posts. Please follow me if you are interested, I’d love to find supporters and friends to help and encourage me.
I’m 5’9, 174 lbs, my body is terribly ill and that’s why it refuses to lose weight the healthy way - so I will starve. I was once 136 lbs, I ate 1000-1800 kcal for 4-5 months and I did it, so now…maybe if I eat less, I will reach my goal quicker. I’m supposed to take antidepressants, but I stopped taking them yesterday because it turned out people who take it put on weight very fast and also get ugly rashes, so no. I refuse. My skin is already terribly imperfect, don’t want to make things worse…
Without further ado, welcome to my journey.
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i’m so fat. fat people don’t deserve to be happy. i’m never going to be happy unless i’m fat. no one will love me until i’m skinny. until i’m thin. it will feel so good when i’m thin. i can’t wait to be thin.